Yesterday I had invited lots of the mums from school over. This was a big thing for me, as I had felt uneasy (and a bit desperate) but I knew that as The Other Half was away I needed to spend the weekend at home, not always run back to my past, this wasn't very good for The Menace. So there were 8 of us for dinner, and it was very enjoyable. I made enough food for the whole class, but thats okay, we will eat a lot of curry this week.
I was still nervous today, but lots of texts and e mails indicate that people enjoyed it, and it was a worthwhile venture. I also enjoyed the fact that I bumped into people this morning and know them. I feel I have finally settled.
The Menace and I then met up with his old best friend for the afternoon, it was lovely, and i now feel able to mix both the past friends and have a present. I feel I am beginning to live in the Here and Now! Although I recognise it would be easy to slip back into old ways and I need to concentrate on my awareness of those emotions.
I hope The Other Half is enjoying his little break, I have enjoyed my time with The Menace, but I am looking forwards to his return.