Day 79, 80, 81 & 82 #100happydays

Its been a funny time, I am stressed with work, and then there seems to be little time for enjoyment.  However I enjoyed the peace at the hospice, while the Menace had his counselling.  I also had lunch with the other half on the Friday after a stressful morning of moderation, followed by an impromptu drink with my neighbour and friend at the "wall bar" in the evening.  The weekend was successful in terms of sorting things, and on Sunday had a heart to heart with the Other Half, about working together better.

I am grateful to friends who support me, and the patience of my family. Work is always hard at this time of year.

Day 78 #100happydays

I love this!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kSR4xuU07sc

It summed up my feelings over the last few days.  I need to be confident in my decisions, they are valid, and enjoy my life.  Don't apologise for who you are....

Day 77 #100happydays

Another difficult day to find the positive.  It started with a bizarre conversation with a mum about the amount of tutoring of other children, which caused a weird response in me.  Firstly I thought I am a bad mum, then I thought, actually he is doing well, just the results are skewed by the hothouse kids!

Then I reacted badly to some issues with students concerned about their exam.  I have come across these things before, but I was not feeling string and took it all personally, sought validation from my other half, who did not get it and therefore felt frustrated.  Not helped by the dog going off with the dinner.

So... the positive...

I recognise that class stats are skewed.
I rescued the dinner from the dog, albeit with teeth marks in.
I managed to go for a walk and release my tension on the outdoors not on the other half.


And my sister made me giggle - although this sounds sick. My father's dog died on Sunday, but he replaced her on Monday with another similar dog, named the same.  Its all very Solomon Grundy and it made me giggle.

Hopefully more fun tomorrow!

Day 76 #100happydays

I have to say that today has been a struggle.  I have had to work hard to stay on top of those "bad thoughts".  Having had a lovely weekend visiting my late hubby's family, I have slipped into guilt easily.  Moving forward, ironically a strong topic of conversation with my friends in Blenheim Park, is not always that straightforward.

However work hard I have...

I have enjoyed the abundance of green in the park, whilst walking my dog on his birthday walk,  And chatting to someone about how he is now seven years old, yes seven, imagine!

I also enjoyed the walk home with the Menace and his friend and the giggles at the random things they picked up.  I was nervous about the postcard from his friend on the French trip he wanted to go on, but didn't, but this did not cause a reaction, only one in me!

Sometimes it is my own fear of reaction that is the problem, not the thing I am dwelling on!
I am also happy to have blinds on the window again!

Day 75 #100happydays

The Menace had a play date this afternoon, so I had some time out with the other half.  We went for a lovely meal together, and a good ol' catch up.  Sometimes its just good to talk!

Day 74 #100happydays

A blustery day in the rain at Blenheim Palace.  We picnicked in the rain, and aught up with friends.  Two of my old polytechnic buddies.  A lovely day.  The Menace started the day with a spot of honey making! Or rather processing, the bees did the making...

Day 73 #100happydays

Hard working day, followed by a trip to Oxford, for me and the Menace.  He also started his new swimming lessons and started by sneaking in some quick play time with a friend.  Good to see him enjoying himself.